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JnutsJournalToo
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The Girl I Mean To Be (Whitney's Blog)
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2006-04-22 - 12:15 a.m. Dear John, I've been busy living my life so this is very late coming, but I've just caught up with your seemingly endless repartee. And I just need to ask... what good is this doing for ANYONE... really? I don't get you. If you're trying to "do good" this is certainly not the way. There are a million other ways to make a difference... to stand out.. if that's what it's about for you. And I have a million other thoughts in my head that I would love to verbalize... but if I allowed myself to they would most likely just explode with more venom than would be physically, mentally or emotionally healthy. So I will try to remain calm.. and quick. I have had people hurt me in my life. I've witnessed much injustice. I've had people who I love the most reject the things I hold most dear and sacred. I've also second guessed myself many times and sometimes wondered why God didn't offer ME as big or as much as he'd offered others. I've also come to the realization that SO many things "just aren't" that perfect way that you'd have them be if this were a perfect world. But I still try to find as many good things about life as I can. Mostly I try to be as kind a person as I can possibly be and try my best to "do unto others..." And who was it that said, "Do no harm?." I don't mean to sound "holier than thou", but I do have to say "shame on you." I guess I'm way too innocent, and I really didn't realize how much hate there was in the world. I mean I DID... but I've just never been quite as personally affected by it before. The things you share... they wound. Yet you seem to take such pleasure in sharing them. Do they make you feel better about yourself somehow? Clay's voice is like a healing balm to me... and to so many others. The friendships that have been forged because of him have been rare and wonderful... and, believe it or not, often exclusive of him. I'm curious to know why you think that "exposing" him would change that. Or why you think that the gay (omg!) revelation would have such an impact. Could it be that the insinuation that he's a jerk didn't go over quite as well as you thought it would? So now you're back to focusing on the gay thing to the point of... *yawn*? I think you are grievously underestimating this demographic . Anyway, it seems to me that the elusive "closure" is your greatest foe. At any rate there seems to be a painful issue about something within you that you just can't seem to put to bed. Anyway... lots of questions answered... just now while I was writing. I'll end now. It's just difficult for me to comprehend the energy it must take to try to bring someone down in the way that you're doing. J ASS! BTW I really wanted to include an ass shot of you here at the bottom... But unfortunately they are all currently in the "confession booth"...
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