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2006-04-09 - 10:12 a.m. These are copies of some early e-mails I wrote to friends I'd met, on the Internet of all places... once I'd discovered that it wasn't just me. THIS PAGE IN IN PROGRESS This was my very first post in the guestbook of ClaytonAiken.com: What is your name: Jannet How did you find this site?: I live here. Where are you from: Grand Rapids When did you become a Clay fan?: Unknowingly I guess the day he was born. What's your favorite Clay performance?: Out of the 38 I've downloaded... can't think of one I don't love!!! Comments: I read your wonderful postings everyday and this is such a peaceful place to come. You all UNDERSTAND and put into words so well all the things I'm feeling. I haven't been as great with words because, at 48, I feel a little strange having such intense feelings for someone half my age and someone I will probably never even meet. My kids and co-workers think I have lost it!!! I feel like my life is falling apart and I have to discipline myself so much just to take care of the minor daily responsibilities. Prior to a few months ago I was such a perfectionist about everything! That's why I like coming here. You all make me feel normal. Posted 7/2/03 (My 4/10/06 comment:... 38 downloads??? Bwah!) ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ This was the first personal email I ever wrote to someone I'd never met. Kacy, I think I need HELP. Yes, Clayhouse, Clayard, Clayoffice, Claybrain. I don't know what's going on. ??? I thought he was awesome... he touched me in a way that didn't make sense to me at 48. But I never got obsessive with AI, though I watched it when I could and when I could it would be the hightlight of my week. Then one day I sat down and started downloading some songs of his. It evolved into something very hard to explain... but it would appear not to be so hard to explain to those who "get him." The reason I was on that website is because I needed to find others who understood. I am a "normal" white collared, professional but my co-workers are beginning to think I've gone BONKERS. I submitted a new word to the Claybonic Dic today. "Faiken"... which means what I am doing when pretending to enjoy any activity which doesn't completely center on HIM. So anyway, just like you, I have been very selective in the memorablelia collections in my life and have rarely been enamored enough with any "celebrity" to feel anything more than just respect or appreciation. Never anything like this. My question is... WHAT IS IT ABOUT HIM??? WHERE DID HE COME FROM??? AND WHAT WAS LIFE LIKE BC?? I truly don't remember! It's a pretty amazing phenomenon isn't it? I don't know... Maybe this happens all the time to people... but... I'ts the first time it's ever happened to me. OK, breath... I didn't get a copy of RS. There were none to be found. So which pic is on page 39??? Also, what is this "Bathroom" picture I'm hearing about? And what is this reference to "PANTS?" I feel like I'm SOOOO behind and yet I feel like maybe this is my chance to just turn and walk (or run) way from it all before I end up in complete ruin! The CD I made of him has got to be one of my most prized possessions. It's got EVERYTHING on it! Even songs I never hear anyone speak about. I want to share it with the world!!! I get frustrated hearing only about BOTW and TITN. Theyr'e great, but there are SO many others. Have you heard "I Will Be THere" or "Not Suppose To Love You Anymore?" Also his versions of "On The Wings Of Love", "Love of My Life" and "Could Not Ask For More".... OH!...I was driving home tonight and I heard the introduction to that song on my radio (the first time I had turned off my CD player in weeks!!!) and it was the ORIGINAL VERSION OF THE SONG!!!! EEeeewwwww! I actually used to LIKE that version. Anyway, sorry, I've gotten Clayried away. Seems to be what happens most of the time lately. Please write back if you can. Jannet Written on 6/27/03 ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ And remember when we used to claim his bodyparts? Ok, Ok... I'm just speakin' for myself here... ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ 0 comments so far previous - next